What God taught me on my birthday

My journal entry for 26.02.2010

25^th of Feb 1987 is my DOB so I celebrated my 23rd birthday yesterday.

I kick started it with a bit of soccer (pun intended) which I thoroughly enjoyed. I have been running at the YMCA, as part of my workout routine this week and although I have only run 5 miles in total I could definitely feel the difference. After a very enjoyable soccer session, I went over to the Safeway to get Sangwoo some throat relievers, as I got back I got a breakfast burrito from Keri Fishlock, and also later on a muscle milk box from Chris Gray (Awesome!). Then the test started, I had misplaced my wallet and was not able to find it, I wasn’t too disturbed in the morning because I knew God was in control, and something like this happening in a way it did on my b-day, God was upto something. Then the day grew past, and I looked again and again, but could not find it. I was mostly faithful to my work schedules, rather than going on my wallet search which I almost did. Then after looking after the Murphy’s Kids throughout lunch, I requested a break to the Personnel, and took some time to look again, asking in shops that was near the course of return from the Safeway in the morning but soon I knew it was futile and went to the prayer room to pray. I ended up dozing off and praying only little at the end.

In the evening I realized that my eyes were constantly looking, I was checking my mail box frequently hoping that somebody picked it up and brought back to the base or something. As time passed and my wallet was still missing and I began to feel a little bit of concern building up in my heart, so I constantly reminded myself not to worry, that it will turn out or blessed someone by God's will and I want to be a blessing to other people. Then I realized for me to be constantly looking is lacking in faith. For me to be wandering like a hyena and hoping something that I desire will turn up is indeed lacking in faith. This is because we are not trusting God that He is in control and is providing and leading us.

Looking around is same as worrying, God is a jealous God, He doesn't like it when we wail about food that He has provided. God doesn’t like it when we complain about the place He has led us to. God doesn’t like it when we complain about the wife/husband that He has allowed us. God doesn't like it when we wander around looking for things on our own. He likes it when He can give it to us in His timing. He wants us not to be afraid but to believe (Mark 5:36), simply believe in His powers and goodness. He loves it when we only move as He moves (Num 9:23). He loves it when we acknowledge Him in the midst of whatever we might be doing.  So don’t look around, don’t complain, don’t crave for other things. Be submitted to the task on hand, and trust God’s power, His arm is indeed not too short.

TRUST.

Ps. Wallet turned out in my room below some stacked up clothings. I felt the urge to look across an unused bed as I was getting ready to sleep, it came in sight as I got on the bed, stretching to look on the other side. (I don't remember putting it there k)

(Disclaimer, personal journal personal opinions, applying to personal convictions and situations)

 

Scott Lee.